I do remind myself of this all the time. I do not want my past to repeat itself. I care about you so big and I hope that shows with how much time, energy, and effort I invest into us. I hate being off, being on different pages, guessing what you're thinking...your importance in my life can't be put into words or conveyed with a post. If I lost us, I'd struggle to ever be me again. So I choose not to worry about how things can get f'ed up and live in the present, celebrate each day together.